I love my life. It wasn’t always this way. There was a time in my life that I hated every moment. It’s hard to believe, but it’s true.
Through a series of events my eyes were opened to the cruelty of this world and that dreams and wishes often do not come true.
Even though I put the cruelty that had happened to me in the past refusing to be a victim and instead becoming the victor, those events changed me. I was no longer a happy little girl instead I became sad and fearful which became worse when I reached adulthood as more events came my way.
To deal with each new event I started to expect the worse out of life so that I would never be hurt or disappointed. I didn’t realize it at the time that we get what we expect out of life. Since I expected the worse that is exactly what I received each and every day. When I didn’t think things could get any worse they did...at least in my mind.
You see I was looking at life wrong. Our thoughts and words are powerful. They can destroy us and those around us, or they can bring great joy and happiness. It’s our choice.
I never realized that it was my choice to be happy. I was relying on outside sources; events, people, things, to make me happy. When we do that, we will always be disappointed.
St. Paul said ‘I have learned to be content with whatever I have, in any and all circumstances.’ Wow, those are powerful words!!!
I used to think that if I was content with my circumstance then I would be stuck there. God would think I was content and therefore not bless me with what I wanted out of life. I was wrong, that is the thinking of man, not God. God will not give us more if we are not thankful and content with what he has already blessed us with. God doesn’t respond to temper tantrums like some parents do with their children. Also, God will never give us that which we are not equipped or prepared to handle at the moment. Often we need to grow and mature to receive the blessings he has in store for us.
God knows us better than we know ourselves. He knows what will bring us the most happiness. Often we desire something only to go out on our own and get it resulting in regret years later.
Unfortunately for me, it took losing everything I held dear to realize that. I have such regret now since I wasn’t content with everything in my life back then. Granted I was grateful but not content, my gratefulness wasn’t sincere. As a result this allowed Satan to enter my thoughts which destroyed my life at that time.
Today I choose to be happy every day and I am content with my life. It isn’t always easy, therefore I have to recognize when the Devil puts those old evil thoughts back in my head that I need to chase him away.
I have given my life over to God. He will make things right for me and get me through the rough patches. God loves me more than anyone in this world ever could. He wants to bless me and wants me to be happy. I try to appreciate everyone and everything. I notice the smallest blessings now and as a result I am happier than I have ever been.
We as humans mess up our own lives more than anyone else ever could by reliving the past, with unrealistic expectations for our present circumstance, and by the words we say.
Today I remain positive, grateful, thankful and hold no unforgiveness no matter what comes my way. I do not allow anger, bitterness, resentment to take over my thoughts.
Today I am at peace, I am happy...and I am content.
